The Matrix Dogmatic Force

May 10, 2021

BoJenn

I have written about this elsewhere, but I want to ask plainly:

Have you noticed this vigorous, almost aggressive system operating within religious and spiritual communities?

Before I continue, I need to clarify terms. An NDE is a near-death experience. A TDE is something different—longer, deeper—a temporary death experience.

In 1998, I left the Christian faith. I closed that door deliberately. I won’t detail all the reasons here, but know this: I was a devout, practicing Christian for over thirty years. I learned the approved phrases, the required tone, the guilt that followed if the words were not spoken with sufficient enthusiasm. I judged others, and I was judged in return.

After leaving, I entered a Gnostic Christian framework. I embraced the Dead Sea Scrolls, the Gospel of Mary Magdalene, and the Book of Enoch. That belief system held me—until my TDE on February 9, 2019.

That experience brushed against belief, but it was not religious. It was not spiritual in the way religion defines spirituality. It was scientific and mathematical. It had nothing to do with doctrine—except for one singular realization.

After that, I left Gnosticism as well.

What followed was not loss, but peace. A quiet, autonomous discovery of self. And with it came an unsettling clarity: I could see the force behind people who insist their beliefs are the correct ones.

I see it on NDE forums. I feel its anger, its urgency. It operates like a matrix of power—a system that traps people by demanding certainty and allegiance. Escaping it does not happen overnight. It can take years of saying “no.”

This force does not tolerate deviation. The further one moves away from its sanctioned beliefs, the more it attacks—through fear, ridicule, moral pressure, and isolation. Then, one day, it stops.

That’s how you know you’ve grown beyond its reach.

I’m asking:

Has anyone else seen this? Felt it? Recognized its demand that human beings must believe something?

It is powerful.

And it is frightening—until it no longer has authority over you.